we could all learn a thing or two from marcel. plus, he makes me laugh. he understands what most people (including myself) forget every now and then: how to
live in the moment!
such an easy thing to say; not so easy to do. i’ve blogged about living in the moment so many times… but it’s a subject and approach to life that never grows old. we all need a little reminding every now and then…
i’m all about living in the moment, but it’s been extremely challenging to go with the flow as jeff & i plan our wedding. i have to remind myself over and over and over again that i need to let go of certain things (like not having an intimate wedding) and everything will work out. it’s not the end of the world that the intimate wedding i imagined of close friends and family has nearly tripled to include 200+ people. this whole guestlist issue was so hard for me to let go of. i was fighting a battle that i knew in the back of my mind i could never win. i refused to let it be. maybe it’s because even though i have a clan of a family, there really are only a handful of them that truly know me and everything that i’ve gone through… but at the same time, who am i to say that one family member is more important than the other? they’ve all been a part of my life in some way. it’s a big day – once in a lifetime, and of course i want everyone there, but the practical side of me thinks it’s excessive and unnecessary. i would much rather take the money we’re spending on this huge wedding and put it towards a home where we can start our life together. total catch-22.
it’s really ironic that i was so stubborn about this one part of our wedding planning because in my yoga practice, if i can’t be. through yoga, i have learned to let go of all the things that hold me back – and just accept what is. it doesn’t happen immediately, but through practice and awareness i eventually find my way. so after practice (aka venting, bitching, crying, and talking to jeff) …i finally was able to let it go. i found peace with myself and now i can go with the flow. after i decided this in my mind and heart, planning became so much easier. it’s fun for both of us. we laugh more. smile more.
“guess why i smile a lot? …cuz it’s worth it”
- marcel the shell with shoes on
yes, it’s so worth it.