if you’ve been reading my blog over the last several months, you may have noticed that there has been a recurring theme in my posts: balance. balance has been a big part of my life for the past several years – mostly because i realized that there’s more to life that just work – life is meant to be lived: wholly, completely and without hesitation.
it’s been about 4 weeks since my life took a different bend in the road. i feel like my life has done a little somersault with a twist – ending back where i began, except with a different perspective on my life and different priorities.
2 years ago…
like most americans, i was stuck in the vicious cycle of a 9-5 / 40 hour workweek: wake up / work / eat while working if eating at all / back to work until the sun goes down / eat (foreal this time) / miscellaneous vegging activities (for me: tv, reading, knitting, bottle of wine to suppress the nerves or YOGA!) / sleep… only to wake up shower & repeat again the next day.
i was tired of having a case of the mondays, or getting excited about hump day (it’s really fun to say tho …makes some people giggle …and i’m one of those people. haha). anyway, hump day is a sham. yeah it’s halfway through the week… but there are still 2 days left to go til friday. not a big deal… thursday could be a doozy…. and finally… TGIF! i was so done with labeling my days of the week to help numb the pain.
exhausted with climbing the corporate ladder and jumping through political hoops, i abandoned my career in lighting design to work at lululemon palo alto & be a yoga teacher, much to the dismay of my parents. i was burnt out, had fallen out of love with design, was tired of the ego-driven / workaholic / unbalanced environment i had been sucked into for the last 5 years of my life. i was so over it and really had no intention of looking back. peace out architecture, lighting and anything related to it.
i was on a quest for balance and to fill a void that was missing: making a difference in someone’s life. and it was the best decision of my life.
fast-forward to the present:
200 hours certified in flow yoga, 6 months of apprenticeship with two amazing teachers in the bay area, and a year of teaching under my mat – i realize that i am what i set out to be. i’ve met so many new people and made new friends along the way who ignited my passion for life and shared my love for health, fitness & wellness.
even though lighting design was the last thing i imagined myself going back to, now, it works for me. to be honest, a lot of it had to do with the need for financial stability, but still – that comes with a price… and i wasn’t about to sell my soul to the devil again. i’ve learned that i can be any and all things i want to be in my life – i don’t have to choose one or the other. i approached my return to design as a balancing act: how can incorporate all things that i value without compromising my teaching, my career, my family and my love life? today, i’m in a different place in my life, where i feel like i know myself better; i know what works for me & what doesn’t… and that only comes with good ol’ trial & error… with a dash of time & patience.
i am in equilibrium: i work part-time from a home studio in marin surrounded by redwoods with a mentor / (now) principal designer(!) with whom i work amazingly. the air is fresh, it’s peaceful & i have great companions to keep me company: tasha & hansel. i teach vinyasa & power yoga part-time (4 classes/week). i connect with my students and i share my practice with them, hoping that they walk away learning something new or feeling better about themselves & their practice. i practice yoga as often as i can, right now about 2x/week, and trying out new classes & studios in marin county while up here in the latter part of the week. i have more of my weekend free to spend time with people who are important in my life. i have love in my life for my family, friends, and for jeff.
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”
― Albert Einstein
i’ve come full circle in this short journey – a somersault with a twist!