…is what i often tell myself when i’ve piled waaay too much on my plate – both in food and in life.
foodwise, i’m lucky because most of the time my boyfriend, jeff, often doubles as my garbage disposal when my stomach fails me. “your eyes are bigger than your stomach,” my dad would tell me over and over again when i was a kid – and is still true to this very day… some things never change.
lifewise, it’s not as simple. nobody but me, myself & i has to deal with the consequences of having too much on my plate. hello, my name is kristin, and i am a perfectionist. i suffer from type a personality excessiveness. type a personalities are often described as: aggressive, overachieving, controlling, impatient, highly competitive in nature, multi-task oriented, deadline loving, a perfectionist who despises dilly-dallying & vagueness… aka a workaholic. simply stated: i bite off more than i can chew. believe me, i’ve mellowed out over the years (thank you, my dear yoga practice), and i can honestly say that i’m not nearly as aggressive, controlling, impatient or competitive as i used to be… although it does resurface every now and then. oh yeah, and i am still a workaholic… again, some things never change! old habits die hard, dammit! …but thank you, lord, for jeff, who is the yin to my yang.
case in point: the state of my mind, body & soul this weekend:
i just got over a cold about a week ago (it’s taken me another entire week to feel back at 100%), and here i am again (less than a week later), mentally exhausted, physically drained, fatigued, probably malnourished from the lack of a heathly balanced diet caused by eating on the run, and sleep-deprived. why?! because my overachieving self just doesn’t know when to S-T-O-P. the catholic church should’ve made workaholism the 8th deadliest sin after gluttony.
if you know me, i am NOTORIOUS for my schedule – setting it, packing as much as possible into every 24 hours of my day & sticking to it, which has taken on new meaning in my life since i got my iPhone 4! my life has become a carefully choreographed sequence of events. i am not by any means complaining, i am meerly stating the obvious about myself and my tendencies, and making it a public declaration that i am making a committment to leading a more balanced life.
ah-ha! what does a balanced life mean, you ask? it can mean different things to different people. but for me, it means:
- i practice yoga 3-4x/week: bikram, power, vinyasa & yin – depending on what i need.
- i spend quality time with my family 2-3x/week: eating dinner together, hanging out with my sisters, visiting my cousins, and my nieces/nephews.
- i teach yoga 2x/week (for now)
- i eat healthy meals throughout the day, minimizing the amount of processed food i take into my body.
- i dedicate 1 day out of the week to doing absolutely nothing at all – or at least nothing to do with work, my blog, or teaching. i save this day for mental & physical recooperation: reading, getting a pedi, having lunch with friends, or watching what’s on my dvr.
- i spend quality time with jeff (besides going to yoga together): have dinner, go to the movies, hike (i’m still trying to get him to do this!), or just enjoy a quiet night at home
i am not saying that this will be easy, or that by tomorrow i’ll have this all dialed down. because really… this shit takes time. having balance is one of the most important values to have in my life, along with family, passion & health. it’s so easy to lose balance in life, especially with the choas of everyday events. to stay in balance means letting go of certain things that aren’t as important, and bringing in more of what is lacking. it is a constant ebb and flow; i’m ok with that. it’s just like my yoga practice: one week all i’ll want is power, then another week all i want to do is yin. the most important thing is being aware, and honoring the need for the body to change to maintain balance. i need to bring that awareness off the mat and more into my life…
so, with that said, i close this post now at 11:00pm, so i can start getting ready for bed, and get my beauty rest. my immune system is craving it!
shout out to my sister, geraldine, who proofreads all my posts! geraldine has a b.a. in english from the university of california, davis & currently teaches at gunn high school in palo alto.